“I want to capture and reproduce light in my work.”
You notice this in curating too. You either develop a way of summarizing things quickly or conveying the essence of the artwork. People want to see the soul of the work, but the rest is just packaging.
To keep feeding this, you have to make other moves and maintain professionalism, but it’s a challenge. Art is never meant to be controlled, and we try to control it as much as possible. It’s important to create a space in your work to make people feel something. My earlier shows were about giving myself an introduction, and I still feel like I’m in that introductory phase. I’ve had many shows, but I haven’t moved past that chapter. It’s a beautiful thing, but it’s also a challenge. I want people to understand my work and explain it, so that’s the next chapter.
The imposter syndrome is something many people don’t understand.
We think very conceptually, and when we start explaining our work, we put ourselves on the spot. You wonder if your words are important, and these experiences affect your work. There’s an aspect of my work where I was 100% sure I would showcase it in the future. I was more confident back then than I am now. The deeper I get, the smaller I feel, and there’s never enough time to process and explain everything.
I just want people to experience the subtle aspects of my work, as all of it is as positive as possible. I want to capture and reproduce light in my work, and light is the main theme. The more I paint about it, the more I appreciate it. I’m so deprived of it that I seek it out even more, and it becomes an obsession.
You’ve chosen certain things to anchor your work, and now it’s all about light.
But in the future, it might be something else, and you want to combine all of these experiences to create a compound experience. It’s about being alert in your life, as art is about creating a fantasy world that coincides with the real world. And in the end, we’re just revolving around these massive, incomprehensible suns. We’re so small and granular in the grand scheme of things.
